talk to us :)

of course you can't control it...none of us can. just keep talking and maybe write in your journal? hope you feel better soon...*hug*

My doctor keeps telling me I'm not crazy cause I say I am. He says crazy people don't know they are crazy. I always hope he is right there. I'm scared myself. I've lost everything this year and still want to die, although I've been on here posting for the first time. Depession is horrible and family doesn't understand. They can't. Because its not a visible sickness. I wish they had 24/7 meetings for this llike they do AA. I'd be there every day.

I'm sorry you're having suck a hard time of it. We all are. You are not alone here on DS. I have some family too, some who understand and some who don't but that's okay by me cause they all have their own shit going on too.
I don't think you're absurd or just need to stop, god how do you do that when you're depressed and feeling like shit? You don't!
Do you have someone who you can talk to? Like a friend who understands, a therapist? I personally see a therapist and have two sisters who are understanding. But my brother and evil parents, no way.
So hang in there you came to the right place, we all understand how you're feeling cause feeling it too.

You are not crazy...everybody else around you is :)

I used to think that I couldn't control it but I'm getting better. I think that the journey is just a bloody long and painful one. In the end I decided that I was going to try everything until I found what worked for me. I'm still having lots of problems. Today I had a screaming match with my Mother and signed on here to try find some support and hopefully stave off another month of depression. I know that a lot of people will look at you glassy eyed when you talk about needing help but that just means they don't know how to help you. That doesn't mean that there aren't others out there who can. Keep looking, keep trying to find answers. Nothing is impossible, it only feel that way (and that feeling is a lie).

thanks everyone for you comments i appreciate it.. but you know how it is.. i'm just so fed up with feeling like shit about myself. i can't make friends because of the way i feel.. i wouldn't even want to hang out with me :oP

I feel the same way about myself. I'm not a good friend to anyone--too depressed to really give a shit! But I keep plugging away cause I have too and if I gave up and sometimes I do, well, lets put it this way, I wouldn't be here on line I'd be in bed right now, sleeping :(

family isn't nessesaraly the best people to talk about this kind of stuff. I therapist would be better. Family comes with to difference of opinions and usually aren't able to help much. Now if you are married women then speak to you husband about it. If you are married then it really wounldn't be your originanl families bussness.

some of the greatest minds ever were a little off center, just so happens you might be up there with them

Sorry your're feeling down. Keep reaching out to all of us, many here care about you. If I can help, let me know how. Best wishes.