Thank you everybody for the concern, love and support. I am feeling a little better. I suffer from clinical, debilatating depression and was at an extrremely low point yesterday. I am sorry I scared some of you, when I bottom out, I hit the hard. I see now I truly have friends here. I am not alone. It is not time for me to die, I love my family and I know now they would be devastated. I love them, they are the lights of my life, I realize that so much now. Thank you all so much for the messages and for helping me realize that. Yes, it would affect my young daughter for life, I choose to live. I will not do what I was talking about. I think I am bi-polar even though I was diagnosed with clinical depression only, I feel better for a while, the boom, just hit the bottom of the pits of hell. I will talk to my doctor about that and maybe he can add another med. or evaluate me again. Thank you all so much.
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