Honesty is the best policy.
He cant treat you properly unless your honest with him
And If your not honest you might get pushed to the stage where you something drastic and never see them again.

I tend to do this too....except for me it's more of a matter of "pride" or arrogance that keeps me from admitting fault :-(.

Just remember that the doctor can help you...instead of having just a happy christmas, every day can be happy. Try to get better and be as honest as you can!

Good call.

I hate lying, but you did the right thing.

i know honesty is good but i probably would of said the same thing then after xmas tell the truth. hope you do have a very merry christmas

I was in a psych ward when I as 14 and I never got over the trauma. I couldn't survive that again. I would say whatever it took to get out, then I'd kill myself to avoid the memory. BELIEVE ME if you tell them you are risking a fate worse than death. So just keep it to yourself or tell someone who won't punish you for it.

My thoughts: See doctor again. Explain that you are very depressed, but not suicidal. Get some help and be in better shape for Christmas with children.

i hate lieing to but if i had kids to and havent seen them i would of to

When I told people how depressed I was, they PUNISHED ME AND PUNISHED ME AND PUNISHED ME AND NOW I WANT TO DIE EVERYTIME I FELL A LITTLE BLUE. I feel guilty about feeling bad, because they punished me. SO keep quiet or they will punish you too, lock you up and give you horrible drugs that make sick, so horribly physically and mentally sick, and they will call you terrible names you will never forget. They will murder your spirit and rape your soul.

if u got a plain thou are start feeling worse go to the hospilt right away

I understand wanting to see them for Christmas, but what about forever. First you have to help yourself, then you can help your children.

First how serious are your thoughts, are you just thinking about it, or do you have a plan of action?

I think about mountain climbing too but my health will not allow it, so just the thought doesn't mean your suicidal.

Call your doctor back and talk to him, you have to help you first.

I know honesty is the best policy but when it comes to seeing your kids, its a very hard decission. He should maybe have known that you have suicidal thoughts but you do not plan on doing anything about it. Like ofcourse, everything I am going through, who wouldnt have suicidal thoughts?.. Good luck my friend..

Decide what it is you need to be happy and go after it! Nope, scratch the first part. You KNOW what you need. You need to see your kids. So why ask a doctor for "help"? You know what you need. He might have a fancy "education", but you have a Ph.D. in BEING YOU.

Don't end up like me. Please don't. No good comes of being treated the way I was.

You love your kids, and Christmas, what else? What else can you look forward to and enjoy?

Thank you all for the feedback. Yes, I do have a plan, and it will all be for the better, but I have a set date, and it's not until after they leave in January. I went to him for help to get through the next month until they get here, so maybe I'll call back and tell him about the thoughts, but not the plan. Thanks again!