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so, here's the deal - my soon-to-former wife and i are selling our house.
a few weeks ago we had the in-ground pool covered for the winter. which means a massive amount of chlorine and chemicals.
then, the new buyers wanted us to re-open the pool so it could be inspected.
so we re-opened it. and haven't had it reclosed yet.
about two years ago we had stray cats in our yard. about 40 of them by some counts. we tried tagging them so we could get an accurate number, but they're fast little fuckers.
we fed them daily so naturally they didn't go away.
they would drink from the pool and of course since we were swimming in it the chlorine didn't hurt them.
(when we realized we were spending more on cat food than on people food we decided to stop feeding them. it took about three months before they all moved on.)
anyway - i'm out there earlier and i notice him. or her. a small gray tabby.
lying by the pool.
only not lying by the pool.
dead.
poisoned i imagine by the chlorine.
i killed it. the cat.
there are like 40,000 people on this site with cat avatars. i assume that means they're cat lovers.
i'm hoping some one can forgive me on behalf of the cat.
please - i got enough shit right now, bad karma i need to work off. i don't need this too...
a few weeks ago we had the in-ground pool covered for the winter. which means a massive amount of chlorine and chemicals.
then, the new buyers wanted us to re-open the pool so it could be inspected.
so we re-opened it. and haven't had it reclosed yet.
about two years ago we had stray cats in our yard. about 40 of them by some counts. we tried tagging them so we could get an accurate number, but they're fast little fuckers.
we fed them daily so naturally they didn't go away.
they would drink from the pool and of course since we were swimming in it the chlorine didn't hurt them.
(when we realized we were spending more on cat food than on people food we decided to stop feeding them. it took about three months before they all moved on.)
anyway - i'm out there earlier and i notice him. or her. a small gray tabby.
lying by the pool.
only not lying by the pool.
dead.
poisoned i imagine by the chlorine.
i killed it. the cat.
there are like 40,000 people on this site with cat avatars. i assume that means they're cat lovers.
i'm hoping some one can forgive me on behalf of the cat.
please - i got enough shit right now, bad karma i need to work off. i don't need this too...
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
I forgive you, but i don't think this is your fault....
now i can get to the serious business of being down and depressed about the rest of my life...