hi everyone im new u havnt heard my story yet so here it goes ive been dressed since i was alittle kid it wasnt so bad but one time i tried to hurt myself by drinking somthing i wasnt suppose to but my mom help me out of that she really the only one i can talk to my father u really cant talk to everytime i do he just blames me foe thing im not doing in ur life. U guys ever had some to put u down all the time and never tell u anything good and then at like that gonna help u well its doesnt my mo is the only one in this world that i think unstand my she look past the things i do wrong and tells me i can do better for my self and that help out alot well reason i had a good job so good i can suport living by myself had a car and outstanding girlfriend a model type two cats who i loved like there were my own kids and friends alots of them and then in a flash i lost everything and i mean everything no work no no home no car no girl no cats nothing i wa left all alone all at once has anyone ever lost everything at once how do they aspect anyone to haddle that i was so sad i didnt know what to do i just wated to disappear and i did i went to my frind house and i and i stop all contact to my family i didnt want my father to no hey ur son was doing good now his a loser again didnt want to let him know i let hi down again in life and my friends didnt want them to know i have no money and i cant do things with them anymore they talk behind eachother backs anyways if they would find out people all where i lived would know but not what happen somthing worst that they would make ur probably like how r they ur friends not all of them r bad just some and i also did want to see my ex if i would had seen her out with another guy i would just die and so i left 6 month not talking to anyone my i that point that i was gone i was so sad very sad i cryed almost everyday have u guys ever been in pain for 6 month worst time in my life then one day my mom called my friend and told him that she reallyy needed to talk to me she knew smothing was wrong which was weird cause no else even cared where a was like nothing ever happen so i went home and she knew somthing was wrong she said come home let us help u so i did but as im here my pains getting worst dont knwo y i dont have many friends anymore i was gone to long now when i call they really dont wanna do anything anymore they got new friends so i got like to people i talk to right now and i haerd my ex is dated a guy and i seen him i dont know y but somthing happen inside off me and i just had to leave and before i left he gave me a mean look i think who knew who i was so before i did somthing i didnt want to do i left my frineds was with me and i ask him before if the guys look better then me cause i justed wanted to know like everyone u know and he said he was hot i was fine did know what that mean but anyways when i seen him he didnt look that good he was ok was he saying i was ugly right then and there i was about to die i keep thinking was i ugly all alone got to depress and i felt like i needed to go away again so i left again but this time i notice i cant do this anymore somthing wrong i need help bad and its getting worst all i do is cry and im a man i dont need to cry everyday and walk around with a sad face all the time one thing i dont wanna do is be on meds for this i just dont wanna do it does anyone have a story like mine and is there a way i can go back to how i use to feel cause really i dont think i wanna feel like this anymore i need help fast plz can someone help me if u can it will help alot thx
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