i feel like i'm sinking into a black hole of darkness. i'm fighting so hard to stay on top of everything but it doesn't seem to be working. I can't concentrate on anything most of the time, i can't eat well don't want to eat is more accurate i have so much stuff going through my head at once i can't differentiate one thing from another, i feel so numb and worthless this is the first time i've been able to write out what i'm feeling in a while. i've struggled with self harm for so long but have been able to control myself and stay ontop of it for a couple of years now but i'm so worried i'm heading back there i'm fantasizing about it all the time and am at the point where i actually have stuff in which i could act on it again i don't know why i got it but i did. i don't know anymore life is just crappy atm and i just feel so lost...
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