Since my husband has been in Iraq for these past few months it's been torture trying to figure out when he's going to call. This is his second time over there. I thought I'd prepared for it. But, I just can't prepare for those dreaded missed calls. While he's there he's the only one that can call. There is no way that I can call him. I get so anxious trying to guess when he'll be able to call next. In the last 2 weeks I've missed 4 calls. Yesterday I lost it when I saw I'd missed yet another call. I broke down and threw my printer clear accross the room. Since it didn't break on the first toss, I heaved it into the wall until it broke. Tonight I finally was able to talk to him. It was good to finally be able to hear his voice again. I just wanted to let you guys know cause after yesterday I realized that I really need a support group outside my family to let these feelings out at. It can get so difficult and that's the reason I'm here.
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