I've been at the site for about a month now, I'd say. I came here to try and get some support for the depression that's been trying to overtake my life. I've felt this onset for several months now, and having suffered depression before, I know I don't want to be depressed and I knew I need some kind of support from somewhere before it got really bad. So far, it hasn't gotten any worse, but it hasn't gotten any better either. Now I'm starting to feel that giving up the fight and just letting it take complete hold on me just beging being totally miserable. It's starting to seem like a better option than fighting for what's starting to look like an unachievable goal. I don't want to give up. I don't want to be depressed like I was before, but it's hard fighting alone. Don't worry, I have no desire to hurt or kill myself. I don't wanna' be dead, I wanna' be happy. I seem to have run out of reasons to fight any longer. Help me fight. Help me stand. Please.
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