I think the subject says it all. Dying is in my mind all day every day at the moment. I look around me and i see a world full of people who deserve to be alive. I know that i dont. I swallowed razorblades a few weeks ago in the hope that it would kill me but no, here i still am. I was detained in hospital for a few weeks and now i am once again desperate. While i was being admitted into hospital through A & E the surgical consultant told me that i was a time wsting attention seeker. I felt so ashamed and wanted to run away from there. However they had two policemen to make sure i wouldnt run away. He made me feel even more worhtless than i already did. But he couldnt be more wrong as the last thing i want is attention, in fact i really want to be left alone to die. My family deserve so much more than me. Will the pain of being me never end. Please help, much love mandy.
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