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It all seems very random and unfair that so many should suffer at the hands of others. Unfortunatly father time can not be rewinded, and the future at a glimpse is as dark as the past. My intentions and desires often get mixed up in my upside down pretenses and I hide away that which is too painful to deal with. Our bodies and minds are amazing computers with the ability to black out that which we cannot mentally or physically handle at the time of the tretchery.
I just wonder why my mind feels it necessary to disclose the past to me now. Am I really so different now than I was then? I think not. I am still that frightened child in the corner. Yet, I pretend to be the adult who is fearless and can be everything to everyone. Where did I go, or more importantly, who was I to begin with?
It all seems very random and unfair that so many should suffer at the hands of others. Unfortunatly father time can not be rewinded, and the future at a glimpse is as dark as the past. My intentions and desires often get mixed up in my upside down pretenses and I hide away that which is too painful to deal with. Our bodies and minds are amazing computers with the ability to black out that which we cannot mentally or physically handle at the time of the tretchery.
I just wonder why my mind feels it necessary to disclose the past to me now. Am I really so different now than I was then? I think not. I am still that frightened child in the corner. Yet, I pretend to be the adult who is fearless and can be everything to everyone. Where did I go, or more importantly, who was I to begin with?
scurrie
I don't think you will always be lost.
deleted_user
I'm like that too. It sounds like you're having flash backs and they can be as frightening now as they were when the stuff was happening to you in the first place. I know because I have them too, and I do feel like a frightened child again sitting in a corner by myself, so alone with no help. Do you have someone to talk to?
deleted_user
Im sorry hun. Yeah this happens to a lot of us. I've blocked out things of the past. Dont think I actually want to remember them to tell you the truth. All i know is that you cant rewind your past... as much as you liked to its there. Are you getting the help that you need to right now? counsilling? etc?
deleted_user
i am a work in progress...hugs to you all....scurrie, im behind the waterfall
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
