Here i am in the middle of another med change, and life on life's terms has shown up big time again, and i am having alot of trouble dealing wiht the depression that is coming along with it. I lost another job. This is the second one in two months, and with the economy being the way it is it is really frustrating, and plus with me not having a car it is really hard for me to find a job.The public transportation stops running around her around four and it is just not easy to rely on them to get me to and from work. i am so trying to look at the positive side of all of this because like others are telling me it could be my Higher Power telling me it is time for me to go back to school. I am 45 years old and have no clue what I want to take. LOL. I am a recovering alcoholic and everyone says that i would make a really good alcohol and drug counselor and i am not sure if that is omething that i would want to do. I have all ready taken 30 thousand dollars in student loans for something i did not pursue and i really can't get any more money becaause i am not even able to pay that money back with me not wokring at the moment. i do nto know if any of this makes sense, but i do know that by me typing what is going thru my head i am feeling alot better. i am not carrying that boulder on my shoulder that was weighing me down. i am sort of starting to see there is a tiny bit of light at the end of the tunner i am stuck in...... thanks for letting me vent.
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