Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
You're not my students, so I can't flunk you if you don't do it. But I'll give it anyway.
As yourself what you would do if you weren't saddled with the task of tranforming yourself into something the world wants you to be. What things would you do? What could you accomplish? Who could you be?
When I was working full time and going to the gym, I was so suicidal I never thought I would care about anything again. All I could think about was blowing my head off so I wouldn't have to exercise and I wouldn't have people sucking my energy with work.
When I started working less and stopped working out, I played Rome: Total War. I conquered the ancient world in my game, and then I began to see things I wanted in my own life. Things ***I*** wanted. Not things others wanted from me.
I grew plants and I have an indoor garden I love very much. I read web page after web page, learning all about how to care for my botanical buddies. I spent endless hours wrestling with the Graceful Labeling theorem and never proved it, but I had fun trying. I made bead jewelry. I played with my dog and held my cats.
Work still made me sick, and then when I started working less, I learned all about options trading and opened an account. My financial success has yet to be determined, but the important thing is, I care about it. I don't resent doing it and when I ask myself how I can get better at it, the answer actually gets me more interested instead of discouraged.
I still struggle with depression due to my husband's job, my bad memories, and my job, but at least I have some things to care about.
You will never find those things if you keep focusing on the things people want you to change about yourself! They put the cart before the horse, trying to save you before there is a "you" to save. Or, as in my case, they do worse, actually telling you to do the very things that make you want to die so badly.
Find something to love. I promise you, it's out there if you can silence the voices of evil, the voices that keep you focused on the darkness in your soul. It doesn't matter if that voice belongs to a friend, a family memeber, a health provider... silence it and listen to your heart.
As yourself what you would do if you weren't saddled with the task of tranforming yourself into something the world wants you to be. What things would you do? What could you accomplish? Who could you be?
When I was working full time and going to the gym, I was so suicidal I never thought I would care about anything again. All I could think about was blowing my head off so I wouldn't have to exercise and I wouldn't have people sucking my energy with work.
When I started working less and stopped working out, I played Rome: Total War. I conquered the ancient world in my game, and then I began to see things I wanted in my own life. Things ***I*** wanted. Not things others wanted from me.
I grew plants and I have an indoor garden I love very much. I read web page after web page, learning all about how to care for my botanical buddies. I spent endless hours wrestling with the Graceful Labeling theorem and never proved it, but I had fun trying. I made bead jewelry. I played with my dog and held my cats.
Work still made me sick, and then when I started working less, I learned all about options trading and opened an account. My financial success has yet to be determined, but the important thing is, I care about it. I don't resent doing it and when I ask myself how I can get better at it, the answer actually gets me more interested instead of discouraged.
I still struggle with depression due to my husband's job, my bad memories, and my job, but at least I have some things to care about.
You will never find those things if you keep focusing on the things people want you to change about yourself! They put the cart before the horse, trying to save you before there is a "you" to save. Or, as in my case, they do worse, actually telling you to do the very things that make you want to die so badly.
Find something to love. I promise you, it's out there if you can silence the voices of evil, the voices that keep you focused on the darkness in your soul. It doesn't matter if that voice belongs to a friend, a family memeber, a health provider... silence it and listen to your heart.
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thank you so much for sharing this :)
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you know, my job used to be my love. my safe haven. then i decided to take on responsibilities a few years back and now even my job is hell. i hate my life and cant think of a single solitary thing that i would like to do that would bring me joy except to go back in time about 20 years as a 20 yo knowing what i know now. i would then make a number of different choices that would probably end me up right here again but it would be good to try to change the outcome.
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I'm my own person. who cares what the world would want me to be.
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
