I really HATE having to feel onligated to go to a function just because they other party showed up to yours ....... I have to go to a wedding today and I really dont like the bride but the groom is my husbands friend :( They did show up for ours and I know that it would be really rude it I didnt go BUT I am really feeling under the weather and dont even have to energy to go to tha damn store let alone a wedding I have to dress up put on makeup and a fake smile and ......... FAKE FAKE FAKE GOD I wish I could just crawl in a hole....... The headache is was dealing with yesterday is coming back and I dont want to freaking leave the AC of the house and be out in the heat I know this is VERY Selfish I do But I have dread in my stomach I HATE BEING FAKE and putting on a plastered smile FUCK
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