Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
...the doctor back. This time I waited for a real person to come on the line instead of leaving a message.
This is awful...the minute I opened my mouth I just started crying. I explained that when Mommy passed away my Paxil dosage was increased to 50mg.
I eventually didn't need quite that much and I cut it in half and MaryEllen(my NP) said that was fine. Before mommy passed I was 37 1/2 mg and I seemed to do pretty well.
The nurse I spoke to looked and looked for and appointment for me today but there just wasn't anything so she asked if I minded seeing Bonnie, a different NP that works with this group. I told her that since I finally had the courage to make the call I was going to see anyone I could because I didn't know how much longer I could exist like this. I have an appointment today but it isn't until 1:45...I know that's only 3 hours from now but it feels like it's an eternity...
would anyone be willing to just pass time with me and chat for a while?
The nurse gave me the talk about the hotline and the crisis unit at St Mary's Hospital. I told her that I have a couple of warmline numbers besides the ones she spoke of (not that I thought to call them at all during all of this).
I don't understand why the tears just don't stop. I can't believe I have enough water left in my system to accomodate anymore tears. They stopped for a couple of hours last night after I talked with cat6961 on the phone, but they are back full forcenow.
*sigh* *tears*
God, please, just another 3 hours, get me through another 3 hours...AMEN
This is awful...the minute I opened my mouth I just started crying. I explained that when Mommy passed away my Paxil dosage was increased to 50mg.
I eventually didn't need quite that much and I cut it in half and MaryEllen(my NP) said that was fine. Before mommy passed I was 37 1/2 mg and I seemed to do pretty well.
The nurse I spoke to looked and looked for and appointment for me today but there just wasn't anything so she asked if I minded seeing Bonnie, a different NP that works with this group. I told her that since I finally had the courage to make the call I was going to see anyone I could because I didn't know how much longer I could exist like this. I have an appointment today but it isn't until 1:45...I know that's only 3 hours from now but it feels like it's an eternity...
would anyone be willing to just pass time with me and chat for a while?
The nurse gave me the talk about the hotline and the crisis unit at St Mary's Hospital. I told her that I have a couple of warmline numbers besides the ones she spoke of (not that I thought to call them at all during all of this).
I don't understand why the tears just don't stop. I can't believe I have enough water left in my system to accomodate anymore tears. They stopped for a couple of hours last night after I talked with cat6961 on the phone, but they are back full forcenow.
*sigh* *tears*
God, please, just another 3 hours, get me through another 3 hours...AMEN
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
Good luck!
my appointment is only an hour away now...I habve been going 5 minutes at a time...
I have been trying to be cheerful and posting funny stuff but everything just seems so damn hard!
1 more hour
1 more hour
1 more hour
Sweetie you can do this I have complete and total faith in you. I want an update as soon as you can though just so I know your safe. I love you sweetie ~ Lisa
*sigh*
xoxo