I've been going through treatment for a few years now -- medications, therapy, hospitalization, and whatnot. Things have only gotten worse and I feel like my life isn't mine. I have no interests, I spend my days crying or sitting alone, etc. I feel that even if I did live to get better, I'm not sure I wish to come back to that -- I don't see a future for myself, have no goals, interests, etc. and the pain I'd need to continue enduring to possibly one day get there seems unreasonable. My closest friend is suicidal, and the girl I was dating has left me for another guy. I don't enjoy anything. For whoever is reading this, sorry about my writing -- I'm not doing too great right now and this is difficult for me to formulate.
In summary though, I don't know what to do. I feel like there's no more options left for me. If anyone has advice, I'd love to hear it though.
So, I just watched a TV show about animals and insects etc.Guess what is 10 times stronger than DEET, (the active ingredient in mosquito repellent)? CATNIP!!! Isn't that a shocker? You can buy catnip in a spray solution to spray on cat toys etc. Completely harmless to animals. You can also GROW your own Catnip too. Catnip is sold in your Herb section of nurseries. Easily grown and easily crushed...