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I feel I will always feel this way

deleted_user
deleted_user
No matter how much I try to imagin life will be better once I leave my emotionally abusive boyfriend. I feel I will always be depressed. I think about taking my life everyday. It has always been so hard of me. Even before I met him. I hate myself and things I've done. I feel this is Gods punishment towards me cause I fucked up soooo badly. Mabye I don't deserve to live. Maybe taking my own life is my destiny. I just want all these feelings to stop. I feel so unwanted and lonely. The only ones who have always been there for me is my family. I can't trust anyone else cause I am tired of being hurt. I am so tired of all this shit.

I HATE my life. I'm a screw up.
I wish I could take back ALL the choices I've mad and all the paths I've chosed to take. My daughter doesn't deserve a mother like me. She'd be better of being raised by my parents. I love her sooooooooo
but I feel like such a bad person and I don't know what to do. It's better I do it now before shes old enough to remember me.
ChiTownBear
ChiTownBear
Actually, because you have been through those things, you daughter needs you more then ever. To guide her and help with some of the same deccisions she will be faced with. To show her another start to a path so not to go down one you know is not good for her.

There are many reasons we go through things we do. I like to think it prepares us for what is ahead and life hardly gets easier.
ZAZAS
ZAZAS
Oh please relax and breathe, your daughter is not better off without you and guess what, as time passes your mistakes won't seem so glaring. I use to feel the same way, thinking my daughter might be better off with my mom that myself, depressed, sick, problems out the yingyang. But, you know what, I decided that I would be the best I could be for her, and I did pretty good, for about the first 20 years anyway. My health finally ran out, but hey, just one day a time it, and before you know it, your child will be grown. Too fast, and you'll be own here complaining about the empty nest syndrome. I had a hard time with that one.
ZAZAS
ZAZAS
I think maybe it is comman for parents to feel like they are not good enough, doing the right thing for thier kids. I still don't think I am worthy of mine, but hey, she's a hell of a woman, and I am so proud of her. You and she are the same age if 83 is the year of your birth.
ladyleo
ladyleo
Would you really want someone else raising your daughter? Think about it. You don't deserve to be abused that doesn't help your self esteem and right now you need lots of confidence so you can be a good mother. Life is not easy but its up to us to get through it the best we can.
Find a way to make a new beginning for yourself and your daughter. She needs you to be around.
deleted_user
deleted_user
*hugs* I am sooo sorry you are hurting so much. What you are describing is the justification / reason of depression... I am nothing, valueless, a fuckup.

You are none of this.

Your depression is lying to you. Trust me on this.

*hugs*
deleted_user
deleted_user
You can change things and feel differently by taking steps now in a different direction. You have control over you let yourself think or feel. Stop thinking negative shit and start replacing those thoughts with something positive. You can't control everything or everyone in this life, but you can't control how you let it affect you. You are where you are because of circumstances and choices and steps you have made. You can go in a different direction by making different choices. good luck
deleted_user
deleted_user
There is not a person on this earth that has not messed up really bad. Most of us have on many occasions. Your daughter deserves to be raised by her mother who loves her very much. Her mother who is able to teach her life lessons she needs to learn. Get away from the emotionally abusive boyfriend. He is a loser and does not deserve you. You certainly don't need him.
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