I keep having this internal dialogue about going back to work. I am not really looking for a job and I don't have a car. Jay's commute is about 25-30 minutes in the Durango which is costing us a fortune in gas. I got fired from teaching pre-kindergarten when I went into crisis mode about a month after my miscarriage and it still burns my ass because my ex-boss had a miscarriage and knew what I was going through. But I feel so gulity that I am not working. I still have days that I just cry and can't get out of bed. Not to mention that I may wake up fine then something sets me off. Crying in public has become a hobby. How am I supposed to know that I am ok enough to go back to work? Somedays I feel like I may be bipolar. And i don't want to explain to an employer that I have therapy every tuesday and spill my life story. What should i do? I feel like I am waiting on God to just drop it in my lap.
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