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Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Sunday night I OD'd. I got called in and went in and got checked out. I lied through my teeth on the psyche eval and then cleared medically and was sent home. I was floored. I took all that time and careful planning and for what for it to do NOTHING??
Now my best friend hates me and won't talk to me, everyone else is wiggin out and I just want to do it again because I am pissed.
Sure maybe I could have gotten help and been safe had I not denied being suicidal but I honestly thought my labs would give my secrets and lies away and they didn't.
I didn't want to post on here because too many people know where I am. The cop that came out the other night was an ass to me and told me if he ever had to come back out he would have me committed. He told me I was wasting peoples time and that I needed to stop with the games.
So now I am not going back to therapy because he is a fool. My group ended today.YAY for me I graduated feeling more suicidal then when I started. I am not going back to the hang out place because i am probably wasting there time too and I will never reach out to anyone and ask there help because I would be wasting those peoples time too.
I am probably wasting peoples time by even posting this, but I had to update and did not have the energy to send out individual messages.
Nothing anyone can do...just have to go this alone and when it kills me at least I wont be wasting anyones time.
Now my best friend hates me and won't talk to me, everyone else is wiggin out and I just want to do it again because I am pissed.
Sure maybe I could have gotten help and been safe had I not denied being suicidal but I honestly thought my labs would give my secrets and lies away and they didn't.
I didn't want to post on here because too many people know where I am. The cop that came out the other night was an ass to me and told me if he ever had to come back out he would have me committed. He told me I was wasting peoples time and that I needed to stop with the games.
So now I am not going back to therapy because he is a fool. My group ended today.YAY for me I graduated feeling more suicidal then when I started. I am not going back to the hang out place because i am probably wasting there time too and I will never reach out to anyone and ask there help because I would be wasting those peoples time too.
I am probably wasting peoples time by even posting this, but I had to update and did not have the energy to send out individual messages.
Nothing anyone can do...just have to go this alone and when it kills me at least I wont be wasting anyones time.
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YOU ARE NOT A WASTE OF TIME!!!!!
People who think that are selfish and selfcentered and don't care about other people at all!
YOU ARE NOT A WASTE OF TIME!!!!
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I DO care about you. The cop is the one who needs to be committed for making a statement like that...
Your friends was never your friend if she is mad at you instead of concerned...and you need a different doctor if your labs came back without redflags...
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I want to slap those stupid people...NOT YOU
Concerning my friend...she is a real friend...she has her own struggles...I think this was just too much for her and I miss her and regret hurting her so bad.
As far as the Dr's and labs yeah I dont know how things could have been normal but oh well.
I don't mean to lie to hospitals it just happens. Its like I get there and I panic and suddenly I go into this auto pilot routine of I am ok because I am terrified of being in hospitals. I know that sounds bizarre, but I don't know anything about the facilities here and I don't want to find out after the things that I have heard.
Its not a game for me, seriously its not I just don't know how to stop it from occurring and now that I have hurt and pissed off so many people I just want to end it all now to make it all go away. I caused this mess and I can't fix it any other way.
I know how you feel. I tried and failed a couple of weeks ago. You are not selfish you like me just want the pain to end. I am still struggling but now only am self harming. YOu are worth it - you just have to find the write help and dont stop screaming until you get it. I have had 5 different therapists and keep swapping until you find the one.
You are in my thoughts - you have low self esteem as I do to and I am told that it will get better.
Don't give up. Speak to your friend - she will in time forgive you - it is not you but the illness which makes you feel this way.
Good luck
elaine
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Was on the phone with him when Clark county crisis services knocked on my door. Two ladies spent near an hour and a half talking to me. They are going to do everything they can to help me get the services I need and maybe even arrange childcare so I can go back to work part time.
I also called the mental health center and told them I want to switch therapist and they said they had no one. Said I could see an intern, yay someone I will have to give up in a few months. That was discouraging.
I had put in a few online job apps and without even an interview I had two offers on my phone today based soley on my resume. I left messages back with both of them.
I see the neurologist tomorrow and hopefully he can figure out this pain in my head. It is back today and sitting here is actually the first time in about 5 hours that I have survived sitting upright.
SO I am trying but even with all of htis why do I still feel so defeated and like none of it will help.
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