if it wont' get ya in trouble, don't go in

If you have a habit of not being there, I would say, Don't Give In to the feelings

do NOT hate yourself, whatever you decide

I feel that way on some mornings, then I get moving and the feelings go away

Right now I hate myself anyway.
I take a lot of time off recently because the stress of everything has triggered my anxieties and IBS i just want a chance to get everything smooth

I have IBS,,,,,it can be quite embarrassing at work, but I run to the ladies room anywho, i have a few people who understand...

I just want to give you some encouragement :) xx00

I really just hate myself just now.
I cant shake it
I hate it that ive let everyone down
I hate it that I cant be normal
I hate it!!!

oh sweetie, you need some support. Do you have anyone over there you can talk to?

Every Day as I am walking up to the door to my work, I take this deep breathe in and then out and walk in. Just caught myself doing that in the last year.

If you have been taking a lot of time off, it is hard to not go in unless they are really understanding. Is it you are depressed cus you dont like your job either?

I try not to miss though. Mainly cus I am the manager there. :)

So I guess my day goes like this everyday: I hate going in, spend time all day trying to figure out ways to leave early, attempt to leave early everyday, but find myself there until 6-7pm every night not wanting to go home.

No my job is ok but its hard as I deal with a lot of complaints from people who dont pull their punches. I adore working for the company that I do but I dont want to be there taking it all. Surrounded by people I dont trust while im trying to choke down an axiety attack without anyone knowing whats going on.

When im feeling this bad im lashing out at the customers and my collegues and its going to end up getting me fired

I would say go in and if it get's worse tell them you don't feel good and go home.

It is a shame you can't work from home. Many companies allow that if it is possible to do that. My uncle who is an accountant for the Canadian Government occasionally does that if he is to sick to go in. He does his work over the internet through something like the office at home program. It works really well for him.

Testy if I could work from home Id be ecstatic but no its not an option :(