omg, today i got a card for my birthday which is tomorrow, but also in the envelope was an anniversary card from my dad and his wife, but my husband and i have split up. we still live in the same house. but not acting as though we are married. neither of us wear a wedding ring. and i am the one who decided finally to put an end to the marriage. its going to be hard enough to enjoy my birthday tomrrow.let alone have cards come in for our wedding anniversary which is a week away. i dont know what to do tomorrow for my birthday. should i just stay home here and wait to see what my husband does, or do i go out for the day, to get away from my husband. i am in total confusion on this matter.i do love my husband but the mental abuse i cant take any more. and his selfishness. its driving me mad. he brings out the worse in me. if you know what i mean. i am not the real person i am when i am with him. well i am but it drives me nuts. he has been on nights this week, so the house has been empty all week long. he sleeps during the day and works all night. so i have had some time on my own. and i dont feel like i am in control of my feelings when he is about. so do i stay home tomorrow and wish he had done something for me, or do i go spend the day out with family and friends. and ignore him. i am always the one who goes the extra mile for family members and friends for their birthdays. buy cakes, put up banners, and balloons, and we either go out to eat, or go bowling or have a take away. but that has never been done for me before. and to add to the problems. my sister in law, my husbands sister, and her fiance arent going to feel like celebrating my birthday, cos her fiance lost his mum on my birthday last year. so i wont be seeing anything of them. and i understand that. we didnt do anything for my birthday last year due to that. i am not even going to put up my cards on the mantel piece ths year. cant see the point. i turn 46 tomorrow, and what have i got to show for my life, nothing. i am very tearful today, and i am dreading tomorrow.and i dont know what to do. any one got any ideas ?
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