Please, please help. I need to know how I stop myself from wrecking another relationship. I am involved with a wonderful man but because of my depression I keep over reacting to the littlest of things. He does not know what my problem is. We seem to go along fine and then one small thing will set me off to the point of just wanting not to see him at all, he is blown away because it is over the stupidest things. All the problems start because I have such low self esteem and my depression causes me to look at everything in the negative (of course). I feel that I am in a constant struggle with myself to "act" normal around him, to act like I am nice, to act like I am worthy, to be able to stand having someone look at me, it is so very tiring. I just end up wanting to throw the whole relatonship away rather than struggle to maintain it. I do not want to be alone...I want to contribute to a wonderful relationship, I want to feel that I am loved...I want to feel some inner peace...I WANT TO BELIEVE IT IS POSSIBLE FOR SOMEONE LIKE ME TO HAVE SOMEONE WHO LOVES ME FOR WHO I AM, I WANT TO BELIEVE I AM SOMEBODY.
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