I really feel like i can,t go on much longer,my husband and son have to put up with my moaning and complaining all the time,i am in pain 24/7 both physical as well as mental,i used to be so happy,now i,m a shell of the person i once was,on the outside i,m happy go lucky,yet when i,m by myself like now, i just feel i can,t go on being a burden to both my husband and son,i feel so empty i lost my sister over 30yrs ago yet i feel it should have been me,i feel so cheated i so wish i could just go to sleep and not wake up,my son is my life,he is the reason i haven,t taken my life,now he is a man and all i feel is empty,my pain drives me literally crazy,i,ve seen so many shrink,s that i now know the form!i prefer being by myself,i see my kidney doc,s and am due for yet another surgery in august,i in truth hope i don,t wake up,i,m so tired of being tired,i just don,t wanna go on anymore,i know there are many people who would give anything to live a normal life,not me i see no future i just don,t wanna go on.
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