Vent away. By the way, my graduating year was 88 also. I feel like you are sometimes as well. Simple tasks drive me crazy. I just wait it out and eventually I am able to function again.

The problem is that I have missed my housing appointment and they are going to drop me from the program if I don't respond within so many days...I just can't make that call...what is wrong with me that I can't make a fucking phone call that could mean the difference between having a place to live and being homeless...I'm retarded or something...how am I going to make this phone call tomorrow??? I just don't know if I can. You know what the worst part of it is??? My sister and step-mom both work there...my step-mom is the one who answers the friggin phone for crying out loud...you would think it would be no problem to call there. I hate this shit.

You ought to see me on the phone with foreign bill collectors. I cant understand the accent and then they talk fast. I am flustered and I have thrown many a phone. Somehow, you have to make the call. Before you know it will be taken care of. I try to keep a list of "to dos" and do a few a day. You arent stupid or anything you are feeling overwhelmed. Just make that very important call tomorrow. You home and life depends on it.

Breath & relax, and don't be so hard on youself. Who cares what the teacher thinks! Your own negative thoughts are your worst enemy. Let some good ones in.

Dont beat yourself up, I missed a parent/teacher meeting last week, just couldn't face it. I'm not worried about my son, he works hard and does well and if the teacher had any concerns he would let me know, I'll go in when I feel better. As for doing other jobs do what you 'have' to and the rest can wait, no one is going to die because you haven't done the ironing. Take small steps, a little at a time.x

Thank you guys for helping me not to feel so alone in this crazy messed up mind of mine. I finally made the phone call and rescheduled the housing appointment but she scolded me for not reporting my change in income within ten days...which isn't too awful cuz right now, we have the money to pay them back the difference in the rent. I still have to go there for the appointment but for some reason, that is easier than making that damned call. Thanks again guys...your words of advice and kindness is very appreciated.

You're having some social anxiety with comes with depression unfortunately. You are not a bad mom, you are ill. You would have missed the interviews if you had the flu right? You could not be there because you are not well. Do not blame yourself for that. I know what you are feeling because I'm the very same way. I DID make it to parent teacher interviews...but only because it was with...myself! My kids are schooled at home.lol Anyway...I find any type of contact with people to be very difficult right now, and other than to take my kids to their activities, I am almost never out of the house. I'm just giving myself permission for that right now, because I can't help it, and making myself do it will only increase my anxiety. Please be kind for yourself...you deserve it.