I got calm, walked my kids to the store, came home, made a very late dinner, put them to bed, and I am still feeling like im going to be okay, wow i hope this lasts!! I wanted to thank everyone who helped me, I really appreciate it. The second that I got to that point of thinking bad thoughts, and losing my breath I got on the computer knowing that somehow it was going to help calm my ass down. I know most of you have other things going on in your lifes, but truly i dont anymore. I found church, and thats been great, but I dont have anyone to talk to ever. I know I dont have a life, i have one friend, pathetic i know. Anyways, so you all know even though its over the computer everyone who cares really means alot to me. Im going to try and hit the send button on this, its so damn hard to admit things and let out emotions. Ugh
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