Dont apologise. We all know how your feeling and it's hard.

It can be even harder when you're pregnant, being treated like a baby carrier rather than a person. You have to remember that the baby you are carrying is yours and he/she loves you and needs you.x

Talk to us it might help a little bit.x

i think im beyond help, i cant find a way out of the shit, and im going to bring my kids down with me, its as simple as that.

You really don't want to do that, I know it's hard, I've been there and still am really.
If I had a choice to take or leave life, i'd leave it. I haven't got that choice, I can't make that decision for my children.
I used to feel the same way as you, I wanted to die but didn't want to leave my children so thought, well I'll just take them with me.
But look at the devistation you'd leave behind.

Are you getting any
professional help?

*hugs* please stay safe, as I've told another member, that child will grow and he/she will want to know about their mother.. someone will tel him/her how its Mom killed herself... the baby wil probably think it somehow, wasn't good enough for you to stay around.. of worse, that it was bad and made you want to die :( please, stay safe, for you're children's sake

Yes do stay alive to look after your baby, its not the baby's fault, just take it easy and think of the beautifull baby that you will have its a joy i can tell you i had two and i love them more then everything in this world i practically brought them up on my own and i was only 17 when got pregnant, and before that i was abused until that age since birth but when i had my two children i decided to give them the love that i never had and i did it, it was hard and still is as i got chronic illness including depression but you got to stay alive for your children so please stay strong for your unborn baby, its worth it i tell you, take care xxxxxxxxx

Right now, I would love to just go. That baby needs you. When you deliver the baby maybe you could go to counselling and maybe there is something a doctor can do for you to make you feel like wanting to be here for your child. You dont want to miss out on motherhood. Even depressed it is beautiful. You are loved like no other person on earth is by that little one. Try to get the help you need.

heres hoping that as soon as you deliver you baby, you get an extra dose of parental instinct and love to bond you to the child. For some of us, it the only thing that works when the world goes black. Please talk to your doctor about your feelings, maybe their is something they can do.

I am with mountain on this, vow to give your child what you didn't have, improve his/her life from your expereince. Hey, when they grow up, you find out you did everything wrong according to them, but that is only because you did alot of things right. Secretly you smile and pat yourself on the back. if they only knew the horrors you gaurded them from.

bump. I think you could use more help than me right now. Take care.

thanks so much for that everyone. sorry, i feel really stupid now that i had a nights sleep. i guess it was just a momentary brain malfunction. i really appreciate everything you guys said and it is all so clear. you all have helped so much. and i hope you get to read this, because i want you all to know how wonderful you all are! i will send you all a hug anyway.

I call them Sometimers Moments.