No matter how old I get I still can not forget every little bad thing that has happened to me. I was very badly abused as a little one and neglected horribly. I was also neglected in school and so on and so forth. I'm now a beautiful and intelligent adult that treat my relationships with people as if they are going to do the same to me. I'm very defensive and it hurts the feelings of the people around me that care. I'm struggling with letting go and I need to. Once and for all I want to not be a victim anymore and victimize the ones who love me the most.
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