I am feeling so badly today. As usual a medication was helping and then stopped! I feel drained -- completely drained. There are clothes in the washer I have no energy to put in the dryer. I keep crying about the loss of my dog Beau. I have a job interview on Monday at a great place and feel totally inadequate for it--- too fat, too depressed. For some reason today it all hit me and I feel for the first time that I cannot press on in the face of this horrible depression oppression. I am just too exhausted and disheartened. I am tired. I am just plain tired and brokenhearted. I am tired of waking up in the mornings to another day of hell. I am tired of it. Does anyone else know what I mean? You just get so tired from pressing on in the face of the depression you just feel like you can't do it anymore. I won't kill myself--that is not what I mean. I am just so exhausted I can't go on with my daily tasks right now. I am totally spent fighting this horrible illness that has no end. I want out.
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