Trying. It's futile. I am done. I can't do it anymore. Life is just getting worse and worse. You know, my cat just died on top o 3 of my grandparents having major health problems. I can't get over the love of my life. I am still living with mom. I hate my job. I am doing couseling, but obviously, it's not the right route. Nothing is. working out, eating better, trying to get into graduate school, dating new people, making new friends, looking for a new job, taking meds, etc. WHY DOESN'T IT WORK?? Why do I make myself miserable? Why, in turn, do I make others miserable? It seems I can't win! So, I feel like I have accepted failure. I miss my cat...he was always a good snuggle buddy when I was crying.
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