iv been so happy waiting for my dog to have her babys, then on the morning of 1/1/09 she had six but one was born dead. i was ok with it i understud that sometimes that happens. then latter anotherone died that day, i was upset but i put my feelings aside cause i had 4 more to take care of and thats what i needed to focus on. then the next morning another one died and that was it i took the last 3 to the vet. i also noticed they were not eating, the vet could not exsplan it the showed me how to make them eat. when we got home another was already dead. i tryed geting the last 2 to eat but they would not do it so i called tthe vet the were busy so i chose to get a bottle an milk from the vet an make them eat. they were doing ok. then i found another one dead, the mother had smashed it while trying to warm it so i called the vet back and demanded to speake to a vet. i ask if i should take the last on away from here and care for it myself. he said no. then this morning i found the last one dead the mom had broke its neck from holding it in her mouth trying to get out the cage. now so you understand i have spent alot of time with these pups in the last 6 days and nights doing all i no to keep them alive, feeding them every 2 hours what ever it took..iv barly slept and then got up and went to work trying not to cry at work when people ask me whats wrong. i know that things like this happen sometime but that dose not make me feel any better. this has killed me inside. im not strong for this, it hurts so bad. my head hurts,my heart hurts i just cant belive this has happend im so six to my stomic i just dont want to think about it but i cant help it, i cant stop crying. i cant stop shaking and to know there is 6little dead pups in my trash out side makes me sick and i am so past sad i just pissed.i wish i could make the main of this stop but i cant. and it dosent help that the mother dog is going all over my house crying trying to find her babys. and i am mad at her for what she did i know i should not be but i cant help it. now iv got to get up and get ready for work like nothing happend, 6 little souls are gone! and life gose on like nothing happend. this world and this life is a true mean heartless bitch!!!
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