I just found out that my stbx has a felony warrant out for her arrest. I know why she does. The officer said that if I knew where she was, I could be charged with felony harboring. I lied to him and told him that I didn't know where she is. Why the hell would I do that for her? Now as I sit here I can feel the waves of the depression starting to crash over me again. Life has been so good recently. Why do I still let her have such control over my life? Why can't I just forget her the way that she has forgotten me? And how do I stop the depression again? I have so many things to get done and now don't care if they ever do. I have just gone 180 from feeling on top of the world, to feeling like I am buried under it.
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