i was so depressed and still am. i took a razorblade to my throat. i put two deep cuts on my neck one on each side. and a slit all the way across. i bled for awhile but i must have not cut in the right spots cause the bleeding stoped and i am still here. this is the second attempt this year. i just can't seem to die. the first time this year i took a bunch of pills and just ended up in the hospital. this time i just woke up with blood all over me but no one knows about it yet. i cleaned myself up and hid it with a scarf. im not sure what is left for me to do. i am so worn out with breathing. i have been on medicine i have had many therapist and plenty of encouraging words from people. but nothing seems to work. now i cant sleep and i am debating if i should go get my neck stiched up but i know that as soon as i do they will keep me at the hospital again. i dont ever want to go back.
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