I am so depress that I can not handle. I got into a fight with my husband and of course he drags our kids into it. He isn't even man enough t handle it on his own. Our kids are 21 and 24. What goes on between husband and wife is suppose to be private. Now I feel the whole house is aganist me. I can't handle it and it makes me feel like an outsider in my own house. He talks about my meds while he smokes pot. Then he talks about my weight. I also take care of my alzhmeirs mom mostly by myself. Kids are useless and he can't sit with her or take her outside with me. I have fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue on top of it and also servre osteoprosis where I started injections. He was high and couldn't help me with it. He knows I can't handle needles. My husband doesn't know how to argue without name calling and threating me about calling my brothers tellng them I can't handle my mom. My mom is clean, well fed, and I am always with her and making her laugh or she makes me laugh. I am estrange from my brothers due to my husband causing trouble between us. Now I don't even have them. I am thinking of calling them. If you read under my journals a couple of months ago, it tells about my brothers. I can't even go in my own bed b/c my husband is in it. My husband has a motorcycle and he does go riding without me during the week and on week-ends when its nice out. I have been keeping a journal when he goes b/c he says he never does. I can tell you about my husband pass which isn't very good but I made 1 big huge mistake and its a big deal. No,I didn't have an affair but maybe I should. I am not happy right now. I am the only one that takes care of my mom. Everybody in my house has a life but me. He is also a little controlling but I won't let him. He thinks he's a big man calling me names. threating me about my brother and he got me in debt. This is really for my journal.
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