I am so lonely and I feel like I am going crazy. Every minute things get worse. I think more and more like giving up and leaving. Leaving life or at least running away to a different place. My x-boyfriend is playing with me.....maybe we will get back together...maybe he loves me...maybe he will call back....it is all sickening. Like he doesn't care he is making so sick. I have nothing. No friends, no job, no money, I feel like such a loser. I have strep throat and apparently if I don't take my antibiotics I could die. Its possible I could be poisoned so I keep thinking wouldn't that be perfect. But then I get scared. I just feel like I don't know what is going on. Like my head is going to explode, my heart is going to explode. I feel so empty and alone. I don't know how to help myself. I don't know where to start. I don't care about anything. All I want is love and It is the thing farthest from me.
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