big hugs to you. here anytime you need to talk

I think that is the perfect word coz its hard to describe when depression gets a hold of u. Hugs to u tho xxxx

You sound so overwhelmed. Can you sit comfortably and go over things one at a time, slowly? Do some deep breathing and relax all of your muscles one at a time. Don't worry about being paralyzed during pms;maybe you need this time of the month to simply stop. I used to have just awful pms (until menopause) and I was helped enormously by taking natural (bioidentical) progesterone. Ask your doctor about this. There are no side effects except an occasional little buzz, which is pleasant.

Thank you guys. Toddy, do you take the cream? I want to just get in my car and go away by myself for about a week to calm down but that will never happen.

get angry.... like seriously angry. do something aggressive like slam doors, punch walls, hit pillows etc.... tell people how you feel, but you dont have to tell them really calmy be blunt. if you are sick and tired of it. somethings got to change.... ergf, i feel the same in a lot of ways except i dont actually DO anything

Paralysed is such a good word for what you're feeling. I remember the feeling so clearly, like it was yesterday. Try getting some paper and a pen and writing down stuff. Doesn't have to be a pretty or neat page, just scribble, swear words or whatever. Vent. it won't take away your depression per se, but it might help you offload some of the uber angst. Hugz xx

Byrony I do! I slam doors as hard as I can, and I hate to admit it but I do sometimes throw stuff! Not to break it, just to release some anger. It doesnt help! I almost broke our new computer screen throwing something stupid like a pen or something "at the desk!". My H told me I was acting like his ex-wife (named her name!) and I got right in his face (he was laying down) and dared him to say it again --I drew my fist back and really wanted to knock his head off. I have never been violent, I just feel so out of control who knows! I wasn't going to hit him but I REALLY WANTED TO more than anything. I'm about to explode and don't know how to stop this pain.

man that was hard to admit ...my wanting to hit him. He just laughed at me! He wasn't threatened or anthing. He says when I'm mad I'm cute. If he only knew!!!!!!!!!!!

take a long relaxing walk to think things over. i know when i was really depressed all i would do is lie in bed...not go to uni, not studyingt, not working, nt going out with friends......very hard to get up and get going.....but you have to try no matter how many times you fail.....if you fall down, try to get up again.......wish you all the best....

Paralyzed, yes that's the word. I feel that way lately too, it sucks. The apathy for me eventually brings on anger. When I get angry I act. I now restrain myself from hitting walls and/or fragile, expensive objects (live and learn?). I try to deal with the anger part by inventing new combinations of swear words and shaking my fist at the sky etc.