Sorry I freaked out last night. I am better this hour, been awake and sick for about 36 hrs now. Withdrawals are getting worse every month. I want to go to rehab but i cant . I have to suffer to try and hold up my girls and keep my job to help pay bills where i am staying. people depend on me. So to save myself would mean sacrificing others. Kinda like that bogus bible story about a guy named Jesus. Sorry i have never believed. maybe i should try. seems to work well with others. I actually wish i would have been raised with some kind of spiritual up bringing. It at least gives you morals and something to believe in,obviously helps people through rough times and helps them to stay strong. No don't preach to me and I won't go to church. Just a few thought from the brain cells that have sword fights in my head 24/7.
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