I am breaking down emotionally from the mess going on with my supposed "friends" and just trying to deal in general with my depression and flashbacks. I had one of them call me this morning and leave a voicemail pretty much telling me to tell them the truth about what has happened to me. Are you kidding me???? Why would I lie? I can't believe they took time early this morning for that. I am so tired of this and I feel like I can't keep up anymore. My flashbacks have been bad since I talked to someone and I got triggered. Now there seems to be a lot more triggers. I cry and I want them to stop and I don't understand why I am so freaking messed up. I am trying to work through this but it just seems to get worse and worse and I am in therapy but I am beginning to think I will never get over all this and not be unstable. I hate it. It has been a long time and I was better for a little bit but something triggers me and I fall apart. I feel hopeless.
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