My friend. got hurt. he is 24. he is like a father to my little sister. and a big brother to me. he is all she ever wants, talks about, needs, loves, cares about, eats for, cries for, lives for, smiles for and listens too. he got hurt. and she is DEVESTATED. she is very ill. she is 14 and is anorexic at 50 pounds 4'9". he talked to me, right before he went into surgery about an hour ago. he told me that is anything happens to him, for me to take care of his little sister and my little sister. his words haunt me in my head. i can't get them out. he totally is giving up. he is givng in to this surgery and it is his suicide. "Take care of them River. Promise me." I told him that this was not his death and he told me to take care of them and that he loved me and then he said good bye. He is such a strong man. and he hit rock bottom before he went into surgery. i could feel it. he was weak. and it will scar me. if he dies. i know for a fact that my little sister will kill herself. and so will i. this is my good bye to everyone. if he dies..i am going to kill myself. i will know by tomorrow the news. he told me to take care of them but i am not strong enough. my little sister will kill herself no matter what if he dies and he knows it. i am so sorry to everyone. i know how selfish i am. i love everyone that has ever supported me in life. please tell my brothers that i love them. i love you Cold. i will do anything and everything for you. i will not pull that trigger until you do.
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