I am not sure if ill be back. I need to clear my head. I definitely need to take day or two break from society. I just need to walk away and go somewhere where no one knows me and be by myself and just think. i really cant stand life right now. This life has just become too hard and no matter what i do... even if i get the pelvic pain to go away i will still have 5 years lost and still have the burden of mild cerebral palsy on my right side. I feel fucked. most people get to go to the gym and achieve a higher level of fitness that also helps boost their physical attractiveness (to most people). I am fucked in more ways than one... financially... physically... emotionally... I feel the pressure just building up. Ill be 25 soon and then 30 40 50.... I feel..... i dont know what i feel.... just... maybe numb. take care all
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