do not know what to do. I have a very flexible job. I am a family support worker. I go into homes and help families with their issues (imagine that) I also do some supervised visits with families where the kids are placed in foster care.

Anyway I set my own schedule but the first month was crazy busy and all of the families that are my clients problems have just made me even more depressed. I feel now it is 'my job' to help them even if it means sacrificing myself and if i do not do all I can then I am not doing my job. Almost daily I am drawn to tears for some reason. I want out again (i wanted out of my old job) but as I look at the employment ads I do not think I would want those jobs either. I try to see the pluses in my job, the flexibility, the nice coworkers, but everyday is a struggle to get out of bed and get to work.

I am on 20 mg of Paxil a day. It was working, and then when I was moving and starting my new job or when I knew i was going to have a particularly stressful day I started to take 40mg. That helped, so I kept doing it, until I realized I couldn't see a doctor until Nov 6th (tomorrow thank goodness). So I have an appt tomorrow and hopefully he will refill my prescription. It will be my first time meeting him so who knows. I am hoping he prescribes 40s. But again, should I just keep medicating myself more and more?

I can't go jobless.

This sucks.

Why can't being a hermit pay?

Thanks for listening.