why oh why dont i move out. i hate living like this, he sleeps in the bed upstairs, so i sleep on the couch. mind you its a better place for me to sleep. i got a nasty email from my mum the other day telling me i am fat,lazy,loud and common. and he said well she is only telling the truth. i wish i could just walk away from this situation. if i do i loose any part of the house because my name isnt on the mortgage. so i will loose it all. i will loose every penny i have put into the house. which is about if not more than the 20,000 he put as a down payment. i hate my life. i am so so sad, angry, feel like shit, and i know i made a mistake with moving here. i give him money every month. but now i am putting it into his bank account. cos all he wants me for is money. so he can keep the house. i have paid for most of the furniture, all the alterations. my therapist is away right now, on holiday for two weeks, so i have no one to sound off on. my stress is so bad that i called my dad at 2am this morning, in my sleep, i get up and smoke a cigarette in my sleep. and usually end up burning something.i sleep walk.and i have even thought i was in my bathroom but i was on the stairs. my doc says its all caused by stress. the only other person i have told this to is my doc. i gave up living in the usa to live here in the uk. if i had stayed there i would have been in bad debt, but once i got my settlement i wouldnt have worried for money for much longer. he reads the messages on my mobile phone. and he wonders why i get cross with him about him taking his phone every where with him. he can read mine but he even takes his to the loo with him. so what is he hiding. he says nothing. but i think thats its probably mind games but i dont know for sure. and when i got told today via email that i got on the shortlist for a job, a full time job, he said to me i wont get it. he also told me not to call them any more, cos on two other jobs i have called to see the stitus of my application. whats wrong with that ? one of the jobs i did eventually get. and i have a job interview tomorrow. and that pays well too. so i just told him today. that i am looking for work for me more than him. so i can get a job. have my own income, so when our houses sells i can move into rented accomadiation. and i finally told him that today. so he is extremely angry at me. and i dont care. but he is making my life hell. he is so cruel. i dont know what to do, my best friend who i would normally call, is having problems the same with her partner. i just dont know what to do. i cant move out. i have to stay here. and i wont move out til the house is sold. i am not loosing all my money invested in the house. no way. any one got any ideas on how i can handle the situtation. please
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