I have been thinking a lot about going to my first AA meeting tonight. (Also, thank you to those who wished me luck in my post last night)I came on here now and I look at the support groups I am already a part of and geez. I feel terrible for even thinking of adding the alcoholism one. I feel like a horrible person for having all these problems. I know it is a lot but when it is all written in a list...it hit me. It took me until around halfway through rehab to admit I had a coke problem. I wasn't thinking and I feel like out of nowhere I have a drinking problem now. It's like I missed the part where it went from going out for fun to I need it. How did I become such a bad person for all this time and miss it happening?
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