been going through a lot of websites lately trying to find some type of support group because im in another one of my lows. With covid and everything I cant see my therapist in person. I can zoom but since i barely talk to her during our sessions to begin with because my anxiety, i havent brought myself to talk to her again yet. My meds seems to be wearing off, as if im getting too used to them. Too bad im maxed out on them looks like im going to have to move onto another one, so great. Last few days ive been pretty out of control feeling numb yet having outbursts of anger then crying for hours. Its been awhile since ive had these outbursts for an extended amount of time all at once. But anyway I just feel like such a fake person, I lie to everyione about how i feel because i dont actually know the answer either. In front of my friends im so happy, beyond happy. But the moment i hit my bed I feel so exahusted from all the lies and fake attitude I snap. Hate feeling like crap yet numb all day, somtimes i wish I got one of those bad diseases because someone who wants to live more then me dosent deserve to have it. Idk just something i feel guilty for but anyway thanks for reading if you made it this far sorry my grammar is a mess I dont sleep much unless I take my sleeping pills which also sucks cause i dont like starting another day over again just to feel the exact same. Any tips to just get my mind off things like a cool craft but not something too hard my motivation and willingness to get outta bed always overpowers.
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