I am falling apart again. I just want my life back to normal. I want my wife to be happy. I want to be happy. I want to know that she loves me and wants to be with me. I cant keep living like this. Every morning I am waking up more and more worried and sad and depressed. I spent the drive into work thinking about writng a last letter to her and I actually started to type it. I have a good life. I shouldn't be feeling this way. I want the pain to go away. I dont want to have these thoughts in my head.
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