Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I really need some hugs today. I don't even know why. Is it possible to feel down for no real reason? Okay, I kinda know why. Here is what it could be:
I have a good friend that I met online during my pregnancy (my first baby--a boy is now three months old!). Anyway, I joined a pregnancy messaging board and met a woman who had just moved to my town. We were due only a few days apart and were both having boys! We also have a lot in common.
However, this was/is the problem. She is very much about holistic and natural treatments. She signed up for this like $300 birth class that was all about natural childbirth. Almost all women really want a natural birth (including myself). But I didn't have the money for an expensive class--so I educated myself with tons of books, talking to other woman and my doctors, and the internet.
Well--this is what happened. My water broke one morning, but I didn't go into labor! After 14 hours (and risk of infection) they induced my labor. After 7 hours of labor I was only at 2 cm! I was like--okay epidural time. Well during this time, my girlfriend went into labor! She came in to the hospital at already 6 cm and delivered naturally with no pain medication (she said it didn't even hurt that much! Where I had terrible back labor--even WITH an epidural!). Needless to say--she had her son practically 10 hours before I had my baby. In total I was in labor for about 48 hours.
Okay--so all said and done I had a traumatic emergency c-section under general anestetic!
So the other day I was at her house and she was all like--well, women only get c-section when they are uneducated. It isn't natural. She has a problem with panic attacks--but she goes to accupuncture and takes Chinese herbs. She was basically telling me I was unnatural and uneducated for being on anti-d's and having depression that i can't handle.
I guess this is part of my depression. It isn't fair that I couldn't have a natural, "normal" birth and breastfeed and take care of my issues holistically. Basically--she made me feel like shit. I just kept thinking--gosh if your friends do that..............
I have a good friend that I met online during my pregnancy (my first baby--a boy is now three months old!). Anyway, I joined a pregnancy messaging board and met a woman who had just moved to my town. We were due only a few days apart and were both having boys! We also have a lot in common.
However, this was/is the problem. She is very much about holistic and natural treatments. She signed up for this like $300 birth class that was all about natural childbirth. Almost all women really want a natural birth (including myself). But I didn't have the money for an expensive class--so I educated myself with tons of books, talking to other woman and my doctors, and the internet.
Well--this is what happened. My water broke one morning, but I didn't go into labor! After 14 hours (and risk of infection) they induced my labor. After 7 hours of labor I was only at 2 cm! I was like--okay epidural time. Well during this time, my girlfriend went into labor! She came in to the hospital at already 6 cm and delivered naturally with no pain medication (she said it didn't even hurt that much! Where I had terrible back labor--even WITH an epidural!). Needless to say--she had her son practically 10 hours before I had my baby. In total I was in labor for about 48 hours.
Okay--so all said and done I had a traumatic emergency c-section under general anestetic!
So the other day I was at her house and she was all like--well, women only get c-section when they are uneducated. It isn't natural. She has a problem with panic attacks--but she goes to accupuncture and takes Chinese herbs. She was basically telling me I was unnatural and uneducated for being on anti-d's and having depression that i can't handle.
I guess this is part of my depression. It isn't fair that I couldn't have a natural, "normal" birth and breastfeed and take care of my issues holistically. Basically--she made me feel like shit. I just kept thinking--gosh if your friends do that..............
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
this is the biggest hug i've got,
here to you ..... hug kisses, smiles, all the goodness life has to offer!
Just because you happen to be prrgs at the same time, with boys..doesn't mean you have enough common ground to remain friends..
Feel Better & Congrats
HUGS FOR YOU!