I have severe depression and agoraphobia, among many other things. I can't leave the house at all, with an exception to a middle of the night run to the walmart down the road. I am afraid of myself and what I will do to myself if I get too lonely. Well I have a husband and he is wonderful..but he is getting a new job..which we need the great money it pays. The thing is..the job is a cross country trucking job and he will only be home for 4-8 days a month. That means the rest of the time I will be alone..I won't be able to see a therapist because I can't drive..I can only ride in a car..ONLY with my husband. When I get depressed and lonely I pop pills laying around and I cut myself to forget about everything. I am afriad if no one is there to be with me I will kill myself. Im very dependent on him and his company. I asked a friend to move in because she lives with her parents and always talks about moving out. She doesn't think this is the right time though because she is helping to support her parents becuase they are lazy. I don't have any other friends or family who can move in. What am i gonna do...how am I going to survive? Is there anyone else out there who is alone without a job, friends, family, and is afraid to be alone with themselves?!?! PLEASE HELP!