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Ok I will try to keep this short. My bf is a very sweet man that loves to make me laugh. We laugh at stupid shit, we have pillow fights, we just act goofy! This is part of what made me fall in love with him is his humor!
So, most of the time I know he is just joking when he says stuff. he does it with all his friends, but ya know the old saying...the truth is spoke in jest? (well something like that anyhow) For example...
He is the one that told me to quit my job and come stay with him up in frisco while he worked. He told me in some serious conversations that he could handle what bills I had, considering they were only two small $50 bills. He agreed to give me money, he was sincere!
Now, I know most of the time he is just joking about shit, but he started joking about how he had to pay my cell phone bill today then he started joking about how I should eat the rest of his dinner because I had the extra room in my belly for them. It was all I could do to not bust into tears.
Then, I was talking to my dad on the phone and I told him that my aunt (who just lost her husband of 45 years) told me to be good to brian and for brian to be good to me. Brian heard this and joked later..."oh so aunt rae told you to be nice to me huh?" I said..."yes she did...she told me that she was happy I found somebody who loves me"
his comment was..."So where are you going to find somebody like that? LOL"
I KNOW he was just joking, but the joking is getting harder and harder for me to take. I know it is my low self esteem and insecurity, because I actually know in my heart he is just joking, but man....Have I lost my sense of humor along with my mind?
So, most of the time I know he is just joking when he says stuff. he does it with all his friends, but ya know the old saying...the truth is spoke in jest? (well something like that anyhow) For example...
He is the one that told me to quit my job and come stay with him up in frisco while he worked. He told me in some serious conversations that he could handle what bills I had, considering they were only two small $50 bills. He agreed to give me money, he was sincere!
Now, I know most of the time he is just joking about shit, but he started joking about how he had to pay my cell phone bill today then he started joking about how I should eat the rest of his dinner because I had the extra room in my belly for them. It was all I could do to not bust into tears.
Then, I was talking to my dad on the phone and I told him that my aunt (who just lost her husband of 45 years) told me to be good to brian and for brian to be good to me. Brian heard this and joked later..."oh so aunt rae told you to be nice to me huh?" I said..."yes she did...she told me that she was happy I found somebody who loves me"
his comment was..."So where are you going to find somebody like that? LOL"
I KNOW he was just joking, but the joking is getting harder and harder for me to take. I know it is my low self esteem and insecurity, because I actually know in my heart he is just joking, but man....Have I lost my sense of humor along with my mind?
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
tiger...come kick his ass for me...please???????
Maybe you should get a job & even the playing field. It would do wonders for your self-esteem. Good luck.