hi im new to this, im not sure if its depression or just sadness but i cry at night when trying to sleep sometimes i cant sleep because i feel like ill somehow die in my sleep and i constantly think about how shit my life is and how it would be better off if i wasnt here to be a problem to my family im struggling getting a good job and when i feel like i can get a good job i lack the motivation to get up and actually try, i think i need help but i dont want to ask for it. if anyone can give me advice ill appreciate it, i just dont know what to do anymore and i dont really like doctors or medicine
What were some steps you took for a better life or to improve it
We just got home from Port. St. Lucie. Today was Pa’s funeral. I finally said goodbye to my biggest hero today. It was so hard. My grandmother has started transiting to pass on. She did not make it to the celebration of life yesterday or the funeral today. She is very agitated and doesn’t know who anyone is. She has hospice there 24/7. They have upped her morphine and her medication. They are...