I came here yesterday feeling like crap and received hugs and kind words, which helped me. The problem is that I still feel crappy. Over the past couple of weeks, I have been seeing a guy. We have known each other for about 6 months but only recently started going out. I told myself to take things slow but I ended up having sex with him the second time we got together and we ended up getting pretty physical the first time. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I have major self esteem issues and I guess I figured that he didn't have any other reason to be around me aside from sex. Yes, that's probably not true at all but that's what I felt like because that's my dark way of thinking. Don't get me wrong. I enjoyed the sex and I accept responsibility. I'm no angel. Despite enjoying sex, now I feel like shit. He probably just thinks I'm a damn whore. Last time I saw him was Thursday morning. He didn't say when he'd call me again so I don't have a reason to freak out yet plus he's generally a busy person and this past weekend was a holiday weekend. It's not like we were able to see each other every day before anyways. I'm just worried that he's never going to call me again or if he does call me, I'm afraid that he'll say that he doesn't want to see me anymore. I'm not sure if I should call him and explain to him how I'm feeling or just to wait and let him call me. I don't know. I feel like shit and have cried about this on and off over the past couple of days. I really like him and would like to have a relationship with him but I think that once again, I've been stupid and have blown it.
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