I've been dealing with depression for a solid 8 months and I still haven't been able to tell my friends (even my closest). Ive had my 3 best friends since I was 5 years old and I should be able to talk about this with them. Sometimes i just hit these horrible, earth-shaking lows and I feel like i need someone so desperately but i cannot bring myself to telling anyone my age. My dad thinks I can just will this away and my mom just goes "well if that's how you feel maybe you should see that therapist"(my physician referred me to one but i didnt go). I suppose im afraid that if i tell someone every conversation we have after that will have some horrible hint of pity behind it. Of course when I worry that someone will pity me i feel narcissistic for thinking so and thus my head starts spinning and i still want to kill myself. How did you guys open up about your problems?
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