Okay, so I am not one to really "spill my guts" here but the last couple of days have really sucked and I just don't understand my life. In the past two years I have; gotten a divorce, moved, lost two cats, son went to jail, my father died, I got really sick from some stupid cysts, dated a guy who when I tried to end it beat the crap out of me, broke my cell phone and stole my jewelry, tools, motorcycle stuff, lawn equipment, tried to get me fired, and called my family and friends with a bunch of lies in order to ruin me (so he says). I am not close to my brother or sister, sometimes I am to my Mom (she is major co-dependent and manipulating). Yesterday she tells me that the rest of the family (which is quite small) is getting together for Easter dinner but I wasn't invited. What the hell? I am the idiot who is always there for everyone and does everything never asking for anything. How can she say this to me? Why? Everyone says that God doesn't give you more than you can handle and that I will get my reward in heaven. How about a little something while I am alive?? Yes, some situations I create out of my own stupidity but I really try to be a good person. Everytime I get through something, another thing happens. I really can't take much more.
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